how can I manage the fantasy and the reality of cuckolding?

[kenny1999]

Since I do not speak English, I keep my long story short

The fantasy of cuckolding is a great turn on for me. I always watch cuckolding videos
and I always imagine I am the cuck but NEVER the stud. It's so sexy to see them kissing
passionately, fucking wildly and at the end the cuck usually licks her clean.

I have introduced and taught my wife the idea of cuckolding, to my surprise she is neutral
to it. She clearly states that if I am really prepared to do that, she could invite some men
home and do it.

It looks like everything is ready.

However, when I imagine that I'll have to lick her pussy contaminated with another man's cum, I feel it so disgusting, and I will not want something like ******* to be inside my mouth.

I also have a real jealousy when I imagine that she would fuck another man for real , and the feeling of jealousy is totally not as enjoyable as that I see in the porn video.


Is cuckolding only something most likely fantasy??

And, for anyone who is experienced in cuckolding, any advice for me?

Now, I have hard time reaching orgasm by having vanilla sex with my wife.
I am also getting bored by just watching video and masturbating

 

[MacNfries]

...You ask the hard questions, kenny, and that's good. That means you take your marriage & relationship seriously. In a stable relationship, inviting/including others to join you and your spouse in a sexual relationship can be a shot of adrenaline ... suddenly a 5-10 year old marriage feels like the first month of marriage again.
...Cuckolding affects different men different ways ... some allow that power pill of emotions to stimulate them, and it raises/renews their desire in their spouse. Others, are affected totally the other way, the emotions they get are those of envy, jealousy, anger, etc ... and it affects the marriage the other way. Sometimes its hard to know how you will react, thus is why you read so often that you should approach this desire/fantasy small steps at a time, before taking the big, irreversible leap into agreeing to let her have full sex with other men. There's no dishonor, and you're not a wimp, if you react negatively to the actual event ... its just the way you are wired.
....When my wife & I got into swinging while in college, it was no big thing, and we continued our swinging once we married. Then, about 3 years after we married, she met up with an old boyfriend (he was my roommate in college for a year) and the 3 of us got it on ... they actually had sex for 2 solid days, and I got jealous as hell. I was miserable because I felt I had allowed my wife to re-establish her emotions with her old boyfriend. Thank goodness both she and my x-roommate saw the problem and reassured me that no new emotional attachment had occurred; but for a couple weeks you couldn't have convinced me.
....So, your wife has said she "will" if you really desire it to happen, and you aren't sure as how you will handle it. Possibly dressing her up provocatively and taking her out clubbing, and seeing her in the arms of other guys might hint as to how you might handle that emotional power pill. See how you react when some guy kisses her, or holds her close, or puts his hand on her bare thigh ... this will indicate your position on this more clearly. But, one thing is for sure, once you watch another man "bone your wife and sexually satisfy her" ... you'll never look at your wife in the same way again. It'll just be different.
....Good luck ... Mac

 

[syscom3]

When in doubt, back out. But how would you feel if you only watched and didnt go down on your wife?

And I like your term for it "contaminated". LOL!

And to add to Mac's comments; hotwifing or cuckoldry is not for the faint of heart or jealous type.

 

[Ann4BBC]

Agree with Mac and syscom3 my only doubt about starting was my hubby had been very jealous of a boyfriend I had before I met hubby. I thought he would be jealous.
But I went with other men and I was lucky, my hubby loved it, it actually has helped reduce his jealousy.
But it's definitely not for the jealous man!

 

[kenny1999]

Agree with Mac and syscom3 my only doubt about starting was my hubby had been very jealous of a boyfriend I had before I met hubby. I thought he would be jealous.
But I went with other men and I was lucky, my hubby loved it, it actually has helped reduce his jealousy.
But it's definitely not for the jealous man!

To me, cuckolding is a mixture of excitement and jealous . When I am turned ON, the excitement overcomes the jealous. When I am not turned ON, jealous dominates.

In fact, I know I will be less jealous and more excited if my wife is acting like the women I see in the porn video, who are mostly so hot, so erotic. However, she is
not, and I don't want to teach her or instruct her anything about how to cuckold me
in details because in that case, I will feel that she is just doing this for me, not for herself.

That's why my only way is to get started with small steps and hope she will learn
and get interested by herself

The things I am worried is that she finally takes a boyfriend and leaves me, if she
is not the type of the woman who needs a cuckold.

I am now implicitly introducing her to reading cuckolding stories and articles only.
I do not beg her to do it for me.