You paid rent and expenses and she got an inheritance/allowance because of you pretending to be her bf that she did not want to share with you?I was once the "boyfriend" (cover up one) for a girl I knew who loved BBC. She had once dated a black friend of us both (I knew and helped them hide it) and her well-to-do parents disapproved once they found out.
So rather than lose their money from inheritances and later her good-paying job- she called me. We had been good friends in school, fooled around a little while ******* once and had seen each other naked but not had sex.
I paid the rent and expenses and her real boyfriends came over to pound her senseless while I got to watch and occasionally have some well-used pussy as a reward. The occasional blow job, but nothing too regular. That was my "pay" for acting like her boyfriend and I got to have people think one of the hottest girls in town as mine. If only they knew. Even though she was well-off she spent the money on herself and her bulls and occasionally I got a few bucks and some pity sex. She had one rather unattractive friend who knew and when she came over if she couldn't get any black cock, she'd get ******* and fuck me.
I always wondered what the neighbors thought. I guess they wondered how many black "buddies" I had and why so many came over regularly and stayed so long. Fortunately they could not hear through the walls because she was a real screamer. I have a feeling some neighbors had some idea but couldn't know for sure.
Using your feeling of inferiority in your kink is one thing. Volunteering to be financially abused because some one is fucking a black man sounds very unhealthy.
What is it that you like about this arrangement? What did you have to bring to the table besides money for them to want to live with you?