I have been married almost ten years and during these years, I have easily slept with over thirty black men, including some threesomes. The most recent one was my friend's husband. I think I do it because I’m addicted to sex with black guys. I’ve had plenty of one night stands and others that last for years. I feel ashamed at times, but my hubby doesn’t seem interested; it seems like a chore to him and he prefers golfing over sex. I think because I have low self-esteem it makes me feel sexier when a man takes interest in me, especially to want to get me naked and have sex with me. I don’t know how many more will occur, but I just really hope I don’t get caught.