DDDebbie
Until recently I had never thought about sex with other men, especially black men. Now I have had sex with 14 different black men. My husband has seen me with 7 of them so far.
I grew up a Christian and I love God. I have always put God first in my life, yet, recently I have felt that God has led me in this direction, because it has enhanced my marriage in ways I never dreamed.
I am 46 years old and have been married for almost ten years. We love each other more than life itself but, my husband can't get an erection, no matter what we do. And I have a very high sex drive.
I was at my wit's end and prayed, a lot, about my needs. I asked God for guidance. I prayed to God for direction. and this is where he led me, having sex with multiple black men, sometimes in my husband's presence.
My husband had told me of his desire to see me have sex with other men, especially black men. And this opened up communication lines between us that were never there before. And now that I have sex with these other men, we always have something to talk about.
Again, I am still conflicted, at times, about what God's plan is for me and my marriage. And I still feel guilty after I have sex with these other men. I want to be loved and I want to love my husband. By allowing these other men to love me, I feel more love for my husband. It still doesn't make sense to me but, I am sure it will in time. I can't question God's will but, sometimes I still do.
I grew up a Christian and I love God. I have always put God first in my life, yet, recently I have felt that God has led me in this direction, because it has enhanced my marriage in ways I never dreamed.
I am 46 years old and have been married for almost ten years. We love each other more than life itself but, my husband can't get an erection, no matter what we do. And I have a very high sex drive.
I was at my wit's end and prayed, a lot, about my needs. I asked God for guidance. I prayed to God for direction. and this is where he led me, having sex with multiple black men, sometimes in my husband's presence.
My husband had told me of his desire to see me have sex with other men, especially black men. And this opened up communication lines between us that were never there before. And now that I have sex with these other men, we always have something to talk about.
Again, I am still conflicted, at times, about what God's plan is for me and my marriage. And I still feel guilty after I have sex with these other men. I want to be loved and I want to love my husband. By allowing these other men to love me, I feel more love for my husband. It still doesn't make sense to me but, I am sure it will in time. I can't question God's will but, sometimes I still do.
- Location
- Denver, CO, United States
- Gender
- Female
- Sexual Orientation
- Straight
- Ethnicity
- Caucasian (white)
- Body Type
- Slim
- Height
- 5'2" (157cm)
- Want to meet
- Men
- Looking for
- 1-on-1 sex
- Threesome
- Group sex (4 or more)
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